Hello readers, my apologies for the break in posting, but the last month has been quite hectic with finals approaching. I have been blogging for my college though, so you can check out some of the work I did over there by clicking here.
I can’t begin to explain what a blur the last 6 weeks have been for me. The night before thanksgiving my grandfather was taken to the hospital with pneumonia, I took on another job on campus, final projects started heating up and I barely knew which way was up. It feels like this entire year happened in this fashion, organized chaos that I just dove into and somehow managed to hold my breath long enough to survive.
I can hardly wrap my head around the fact another year has gone by and it has been a year since one of the most heartbreaking moments of my life. I’m not entirely sure how I got through this rollercoaster year but I am certain the company I keep has a lot to do with it. A lot of relationships changed for me this year, friends and family alike, but so many more blossomed. I have met so many great people this year and been apart of so many great things that I might not have been had someone not literally dragged me to it. But that is what made me realize, people who really do care about you are going to force you to see your potential when you’re too distracted to see it yourself. I am grateful for the people in my life and the energy that’s surrounded me these last few months, not all are blessed with what I have.
For instance, some of the residents of the rehabilitation home my grandfather is in have nobody at all. These people are all alone in the world, nobody comes to visit them, their spouses have passed and some have children who don’t call, if they had any children at all. The night my grandfather arrived at the facility I was frazzled and confused about his condition and I didn’t really pay much attention to the other patient in the room, I feel bad in retrospect because he was just trying to be friendly. After though, we found out he had no family at all, his wife was gone and he was now confined to the facility because he couldn’t live alone. He seemed so sad and lonely and it really broke my heart, so whenever we go up to see my grandfather I make a point to say hello to him too, and now with the holidays a week away we’ll bring him a card and some cookies, just so he knows he isn’t alone in the world.
I think it’s easy to get lost in our own lives, our own troubles and gripe about what we don’t have but around the holidays we should all make a point to realize all we do have. While no family is perfect we should be grateful we have a table to sit at. Despite the people in our lives not being perfect, we need to be grateful those people are there for us, because some people sit quietly in solitude because those people in their lives have gone.
This holiday season I want to try to focus on what I do have and not what’s still missing and look towards the future to make strides instead of mourning my setbacks. As we get older we realize time does not have us, we have time, and we have the power to make it count.